Showing posts with label Personal Life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Personal Life. Show all posts

Monday, January 14, 2008

Growing pains

I went out for lunch with a coursemate of mine today. I haven’t seen him in almost a month, as he had been regularly missing our classes. By chance, we met in the library today and decided to go out makan.

He told me he was going to quit med school, and that was the reason he was back at the faculty.

I was not stunned by his statement, as he had been saying this throughout our academic year. Still, I was very surprised at his decision to quit now when we only have less than 3 more months to go.

I asked him why not complete this degree as an insurance. After all, we had gone through almost 5 grueling years of studies. Just 3 more months to make the whole 5 years worthwhile.

He told me that he could not bear to go through this kind of life anymore, and since he will never walk down this path again, what good will the degree do anyway.

His statement made me think of another friend of mine who quit college to run his own business, and after some hits and misses, he is doing well now. He told me that he was not gaining much from college, that the qualification was just a piece of paper anyway.

My encounter with the 2 of them made me question my personal objectives in life. I was raised with the mentality that academic qualification is the most important acquisition of our lives. I grew up believing that a degree is my passport to success. Almost all my friends are graduates, and my sister even obtained her Masters degree from Cambridge.

“Middle class mentality”

Those were the words of my lecturer 4 years ago. He once said that a majority of our society is stuck in the middle class mentality, where we were raised to study hard as children, get a degree, get a steady job, find a spouse, and raise a good family.

In other words, “Play it safe.”

I am a safe person. Maybe it is because I have been protected by my parents all my life. They had kept me safe, and I am very comfortably snuggled in my cozy cocoon.

At this juncture, just months before I attempt to spread my wings, I do not know how successful I will be as a doctor, a daughter, a wife, or a mother in future.

And qualification might not be the most important thing in life after all, but I still would not dare to venture out into the world without my MD.

I admire the courage and determination of my 2 friends, and my second friend is an example of making life work come what may.

After all that had been said, I have come to realize that the wisdom of growing up is something of ours forever.

And that is what I will hang on to.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

My Way

The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost-


At this point in time, I imagine that I am Robert Frost when he was standing in the woods where the road diverged into 2, and while deciding which road to take he wrote a poem.

The latest issue in my life is deciding on the hospitals to apply for my housemanship. Everybody asks the same question,
"Do you want to go to Sabah or Sarawak?"

I had decided some time ago to apply some place near home, but personally I have no objections going to Borneo. It will be a challenge, to start a new life away from home, away from my parents.

I do not know if there is a difference staying in KL. Work exposure and workload should be the same. I am still going to be a houseman for 2 years. I still want to be a paediatrician at the end of the day.

So now I am standing at the diverging road, wondering if I should stay or go. If I decide to go, all I have to do is to tell the authorities during my interview, and I'll be on my way.

Do I follow Frost in taking the road less traveled by? Knowing how way leads to way, if I go, will I ever come back?

Friday, December 14, 2007

Is right Right or Left?


I think I woke up in Topsy-turvy land this morning. But I don't remember climbing up the Magic Faraway Tree. I don't even know where the tree is.

It started in the morning when Julian and I sent Nay to the train station so that he can catch an ERL ride to KLIA. Had some problems calling him in the morning and we were really worried that he would miss his flight but we eventually managed to reach him.

At the station, I dropped my phone!!! My poor baby, just 2 weeks out of its neonatal period, and it is scratched all over! It's my fault really, I was careless, and this is the 2nd time I've dropped it this week :(

During ward round, Julian told me that his car had some problems. One of his mudguard came off and he went through some trouble taking it off. Why can't things go on smoothly?

The worst has yet to come. Also during ward rounds, Julian, Joanne and I were reprimanded by Prof. Hassan for not clerking a patient. Hey, it wasn't even our turn! The other group was on call that day hence they were responsible for that patient! And he had to catch us at that one bed which nobody covered for. The other group's members presented on all the other cases, just one miss. Timing...

In NICU, we reviewed a patient with suspected dislocatable hip. Later one of our friends showed us a case of Patau Syndrome and we were just LOOKING without touching as we were well aware that we need to wash our hands before touching anything... but along came a registrar and gave us a dressing down for walking into the NICU without informing any of them, treating the place as if we own it, touching the incubators with our unclean hands. Well HELLO... get this straight. We came in with our orthopaedics team. We were just observing the baby. We DID NOT TOUCH the incubators! And no, we don't own the NICU - can't afford it. We are just a bunch of enthusiastic students who wanted to see something rather rare. We're sorry for not asking your permission to look at someone else's baby, for occupying 4 square feet of space, but don't accuse us of things we did not do!

This morning, right did not feel right. What was going on?

Sometimes I really want an Enchanted Wishing Chair...so that I can rewind and avoid all these mishaps.

But it doesn't really matter anymore. I am wiser now. There is no such thing as Friday 13th being unlucky. Things happen all the time. Do we sit on our laurels and whine about it or do we get on with our lives?

I think the answer is clear.

At least clinics was fine and lunch was good (nice food and great company). Drove home in heavy rain, but thankfully the Lord guided me home safely. Keep Faith.

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Indulgence

Weekends had always been a time to pig out. It's the time when I go home every week and my parents would stuff me with food thinking that I'll be deprived for the next 5 days. Force-feeding is not just for the anorexic.

I had my end-posting exams this week, which means that I'm done with this posting, and there's only orthosurgery left before my professional finals in March. Scary!! In the past 2 days, I've had quite a gastronomic adventure. Starting from friday lunch, we went to the Seed Cafe in Midvalley, and dinner was at Souled Out Cafe at Desa Sri Hartamas. Yesterday I had lunch at Tony Roma's in The Curve and a wedding dinner at Ritz Carlton. The food at all these places were super yummy. And ambience was +++.

I like the simplistic setup of Seed Cafe. The white and black contrasted really well, and it looked very clean. Very reassuring to eat at this joint =) This was the 2nd time I've eaten at the Seed Cafe. Perhaps I was really hungry, but I think the food is better than before. I had the Pita Sandwich which was served with wasabi mayonnaise, and it was really good! Ka Man's Vietnamese Beef Noodle was fragrant and very tasty. I love the soup. The pastas were good as well... They were very generous with the topping for bolognaise. The price for food is reasonable - my sandwich was RM12.90 and I think the pastas were below RM18.

Dinner at Souled Out was really late. By the time we got our table it was the final call for happy hour. I thought the food was very good, despite some poor reviews I read online. And very reasonable too! I'm so glad I took some pics at Souled Out. Now I can share with everyone!
Kon Voi had this Carbonara pasta (his 2nd creamy pasta of the day!). Personally I can't find much to say about pastas with cream. I think they all taste the same.
We also had a 11" Aloha pizza(RM22) to share. It was nice but I can't remember much about it, so just okay for me.
Mike and Aland decided to eat the same thing. Chicken Cordon Bleu(RM23). Loads of triglycerides on that plate... but of course, taste bud's buddies. Looking at that pic now, I have no idea why I made the bowl of brown sauce my centrepiece. Poor photography, sorry!
Ming had this Fish Burger (RM16). I taxed a bite of the fillet and it was really good!
Ka Man and I each had this yummy succulent Chili something Sea Bass(RM26) which was served with an extremely generous portion of mashed potatoes. I basically love fish, especially cod, sea bass and ice fish(something I had in London years ago). This dish was just great for me.

Everyone was happy with the time spent at Souled Out. It's kinda far for us, but I think we'll return sometime soon.

My lunch at Tony Roma's was good as well. I had a Blue Cheese Burger which was HUGE and had loads of chips. For RM22.90 I think it's a really good deal. There were so much blue cheese on my burger as well! Actually lunch was more of a get-together for Jacinth, Naomi and I, so it was more than just the food.

I was at the Ritz Carlton for Cheryl's wedding. The food was by the hotel's chinese restaurant Li Yen so it was super, and the event was wonderful! I'm so glad it wasn't like one of those typical boring Chinese wedding which was loud and bright. Wedding at Ritz Carlton is so classy... they even had a live band singing classic love songs... aww...

I think Malaysians have a food obsession. Me included. Cheers.

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Birthday Love

I feel so loved this birthday! By my family and friends, of course.

My friends brought me to One Station (Station One?) to celebrate my birthday midnight. It was really nice of them as we are in the midst of our exam week. We had some really cool drinks, ate some greasy comfort food and sang a quirky birthday song. Julian and Shui Wei even came up with a new drink... Mocha latte plus Honey Tea... Guan insisted that we have to give it a name, just like how cocktails have names such as Sex On the Beach, and Guang Hong came up with Don't Sleep Tonight! I thought it was ace.

On my birthday itself, Neeta and Nay took me out to Jusco for lunch. They bought me coffee and cake at Starbucks, and sang another birthday song for me! How sweet =)

I received messages from my friends abroad and Chitra called me all the way from Melbourne. I came home to find birthday cards from Sanju (who is in Prague) and Siew Ching (now in Brisbane).

Even after my birthday, many friends sent me lovely messages.

Thank you so much guys and girls...I love you all!